"The only dream worth having is to dream that you will live while you are alive, and die only when you are dead. To love, to be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and vulgar disparity of the life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never to forget."

Some random person wrote this in an email to me on myspace. I liked it so had to share it! :) Today I'm listening to the soundstrack to "Mamma mia". It makes me happy. And it makes me think of Joeys grandma. I'm so glad I met her and I kinda miss her!


Here are some other good songs:

That's how we welcomed Brian home tonight when he got home. Cause today have been the worst day ever when it comes to kids behaving bad. They all three were the best examples on how to behave bad and make every situation worse. Sydney of course didn't mean any harm, as usual, she just doesn't know what to do with herself when the other two are behaving bad, excluding her and hitting her. And who can blame a 6-year old for hitting her sister back after she kicked her in the head and spit on her? I sure didn't blame her. I can't even explain how it all got out of control. One fight lead to another and it all started with Jessi being rude and disrespectful to her mom, me and aunt Raine as always. That kid is the most pitful thing I know (and I can say that and actually mean it). When even the parents despite her and don't know what to do with her, it's not easy..I'll tell you. Mickie is a pretty calm and patient mom I have to say but today she had it with her and when Allie hit Jessi Mickie said "I can't blame her, if I could hit you I would too". That didn't make things better, but hey I don't blame her. I , Sofhie Svensson, almost lost my temper and had to walk out of there. And you who know me know that I'm one of the most patient people there are. I just couldn't stand how she was treating her mom! I almost started crying, that's how offended I was by what she said and how she acted towards her mom.

It scares me to see how little respect kids have for their parents. I think that sometimes I feel soo bad when Jessis acting that way cause I kinda feel like that's how I was as a kid sometimes. I'm ashamed of myself if that was the case mom and dad, I know I wasn't always the easiest to deal with, and I can not do anything else than truly appologize for all the times I was a pain in the ass!

Well everyone went upstairs after the birthday dinner (yes it's Allies 9th birthday today) which of course wasn't a pleasant dinner at all. No one said anything. We ate dinner, passed thing's with kind words around the table, had the cake we made, cleaned off the table and all went sepparate ways. The worst thing I heard Allie scream now before slamming her door was "I hate you mom, you're the worst mom in the world and this has been the worst birthday ever" followed by jessi aggreeing "Yeah, real good job mom, you got three out of three wrong!". I feel so bad for Mickie cause she's such an amasing mom and she really handles it all the best way she can. And of course with Brian not really ever being at home and helping it's stressful. Well all I can do is try to be there for her and helping her as much as I can and as much as she lets me.

Mickie said today when we were talking about Jessis tantrum yesterday (yepp yesterday was the same) "I don't know what we did wrong with her. We're such loving and outgoing people both me and Brian, how can she be the total opposite?" And she's right. They've done all they can. I went to talk to Mickie now when everyone was in bed, to see how she was feeling. She said it had been hard and that she appreciated me being calm about it. And she appologized like it would have been her fault. I told her she did everything she could in the right way and she seemed to agree. Now they booked Jessi a therapist though, I think that's a good idea. Her issues are deep down, and she needs to deal with them.

Anyways I don't wanna be depressed and stressed anymore. I just needed to get theese things off my chest and now I'm gonna enjoy my herbal tea, some laleh music and read my book :)

Goodnight everyone and thank god the family's leaving tomorrow so I get the house for myself for a couple of days!;D 

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"You can learn many things from children. How much patience you have, for instance." Franklin P. Jones

"We could never learn to be brave and patient if there were only joy in the world." Helen Keller

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Some new music I've been listening to. Found it when I was looking for some music on youtube. Except caracola and the new fool song which a special nice young man sent to me. Thanks :)

Nikola Sarcevic - New fool
Nikola Sarcevic - Nobody without you
Nikola Sarcevic - My aim is you
Miley Cyrus - 7 things
Jonas brothers - Burnin' up
Jonas brothers - SOS
Jonas brothers - When you look me in the eyes
Caracola - smiling in love

And as always I just had to take a look at Mario vasquez - Gallery when I was on youtube, that video is soooo hot, don't really like him otherwise but in that video he's soo hot, and especially in the spanish version, for some reason I think spanish is sexy :D And that lead me to search for Enrique Iglesias for a few videos, it's getting hot in here!:D

And I just realized how much my friend Ernesto looks like Mario, have to upload a picture of that! For somereason it won't let me! I found this one of my swedish friend Viktor though. He really looks like Jude Law,and for some reason the blog lets me upload that one..it sure has it's own will;p So here's Viktor:






Tme for Sofhie to go out for a walk. Can barely walk though. This friday when me and Monique went out dancing downtown we were, as always, wearing out higheels. I usually don't have any problems at all with mine, they're usually soo comfortable, but since it was soo hot and humid outside my feet got warm and swollen which lead to a BIG blister on the right foot and a open wound on the left. And we're not talking a little scratch here it's really an open wound about 3 cm (1 inch). But now I put some healing gel Mickie had, a big bandaid and gymnastics tape around the whole foot. Can't miss out on a days workout can I!? ;D

And friday I'm finally off to Colorado! At 11am my flight departures here from D.C and I'll be in Colorado 2.16pm to be exact! Gonna be soo much fun to see Anna again. I'm looking forward to it! And to get away on some vacation, can't wait!:)

Puuh..finally I get to relax and breath! haven't been able to write here in a while, have been working like crazy since Mickie went on yet another trip!! Only saturday-wednsday but still..more work for me :p she probably felt bad though cause she got me the whole dy yesterday and today off, only had to get up in the morning and help for an hour and then I was off. feels nice, though no one else is off so can't really do that much. Gonna go for a run in about an our andthen maybe walk up to starbucks with a book and just relax and get out for a while. It's soooo hot outside and way too humid and sticky! i kinda like it though :D unless you have to go somewhere and wanna look good cause the makeup melts as soon as you go outside and your hair's a total mess after 10 mintes ;p

otherwise there's not much going on. In exactly a week I'm finally going on my august trips to Colorado and Arizona. Looking forward to it. Gonna be nice to get away from it all and get a little vacation.

And I finally have all the study problems solved. I'm going back home to Sweden to study, that's the decision I have made. I dunno wht I was thinking, I couldn't be away from friends and family for another 3 or 4 years, it's too hard! So the 6th of November I go back home to Sweden yall!:D Can't wait..exactly 3 months and 5 days left, I hope thoose days pass by quickly cause I miss yall at home SOOOO much :) I for sure know one person that will cry a whole lot of tears!:)

Gonna try to get my Sims 2 package to work now before my run. Downloaded it and all the expasion packs but now I can't get it to work..help anyone!?:)


Flobots - Handlebar
Weezer - Pork and beens
Smashing pumpkins - Today
James Ingram - I don't have the heart
Bruce Springstein - On fire

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"Experience is simply the name we give our mistakes." Oscar Wilde

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