That's how we welcomed Brian home tonight when he got home. Cause today have been the worst day ever when it comes to kids behaving bad. They all three were the best examples on how to behave bad and make every situation worse. Sydney of course didn't mean any harm, as usual, she just doesn't know what to do with herself when the other two are behaving bad, excluding her and hitting her. And who can blame a 6-year old for hitting her sister back after she kicked her in the head and spit on her? I sure didn't blame her. I can't even explain how it all got out of control. One fight lead to another and it all started with Jessi being rude and disrespectful to her mom, me and aunt Raine as always. That kid is the most pitful thing I know (and I can say that and actually mean it). When even the parents despite her and don't know what to do with her, it's not easy..I'll tell you. Mickie is a pretty calm and patient mom I have to say but today she had it with her and when Allie hit Jessi Mickie said "I can't blame her, if I could hit you I would too". That didn't make things better, but hey I don't blame her. I , Sofhie Svensson, almost lost my temper and had to walk out of there. And you who know me know that I'm one of the most patient people there are. I just couldn't stand how she was treating her mom! I almost started crying, that's how offended I was by what she said and how she acted towards her mom.

It scares me to see how little respect kids have for their parents. I think that sometimes I feel soo bad when Jessis acting that way cause I kinda feel like that's how I was as a kid sometimes. I'm ashamed of myself if that was the case mom and dad, I know I wasn't always the easiest to deal with, and I can not do anything else than truly appologize for all the times I was a pain in the ass!

Well everyone went upstairs after the birthday dinner (yes it's Allies 9th birthday today) which of course wasn't a pleasant dinner at all. No one said anything. We ate dinner, passed thing's with kind words around the table, had the cake we made, cleaned off the table and all went sepparate ways. The worst thing I heard Allie scream now before slamming her door was "I hate you mom, you're the worst mom in the world and this has been the worst birthday ever" followed by jessi aggreeing "Yeah, real good job mom, you got three out of three wrong!". I feel so bad for Mickie cause she's such an amasing mom and she really handles it all the best way she can. And of course with Brian not really ever being at home and helping it's stressful. Well all I can do is try to be there for her and helping her as much as I can and as much as she lets me.

Mickie said today when we were talking about Jessis tantrum yesterday (yepp yesterday was the same) "I don't know what we did wrong with her. We're such loving and outgoing people both me and Brian, how can she be the total opposite?" And she's right. They've done all they can. I went to talk to Mickie now when everyone was in bed, to see how she was feeling. She said it had been hard and that she appreciated me being calm about it. And she appologized like it would have been her fault. I told her she did everything she could in the right way and she seemed to agree. Now they booked Jessi a therapist though, I think that's a good idea. Her issues are deep down, and she needs to deal with them.

Anyways I don't wanna be depressed and stressed anymore. I just needed to get theese things off my chest and now I'm gonna enjoy my herbal tea, some laleh music and read my book :)

Goodnight everyone and thank god the family's leaving tomorrow so I get the house for myself for a couple of days!;D 

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"You can learn many things from children. How much patience you have, for instance." Franklin P. Jones

"We could never learn to be brave and patient if there were only joy in the world." Helen Keller

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