So today was an interesting day. Or I had some interesting conversations with some interesting people, more one interesting conversation with that one interesting person. It didn't really sort things out which I think was my intention in the beginning, it actually got me more confused. And left me with more big descisions. It's about whether I should study in California next year, study in Sweden, work in Sweden or maybe go somewhere else to do something totally different? Now when I finally have all the applications and money paid for studying in california I'm starting to get cold feet :/ Is it really what I want? Am I really ready to leave you all behind? Can I manage so many years without my family at home? Can I manage to live my life without you? I'm SOOO lost inside of my head..how am I who's just a little dot in the universe be able to figure it all out? I need some guidance, some advice, some good opinions on my whole situation. I need  camilla, you always help me sort things out and make it all clearer..can't call you though. So I guess I'll just write it here..

Call me Camilla and dad I need you!

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"Life is rather like a tin of sardines - we're all of us looking for the key." Alan Bennett

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